Off the Rails

Let me start by saying that I haven't felt this tired since I was in school 8 years ago. I have been going through this course since December and I can say that it has thrown me through many hoops. The feelings I've had, the loss of sleep, and the constant worry that I'm on a deadline, have been murder on my mental and physical health. But writing this atm has me feeling as if this might be what hard work actually feels like. Not that I'm a stranger to hard work, but in terms of academia it really has been something special.

I remember breezing through school and really only losing sleep to laziness and procrastination. But that procrastination has allowed me to power through harder than if I was on time and track. It's safe to say that procrastinating with dev work is not the way to go and has not been something I've tempted fate with. I've spent weeks not only going through the course but taking extra steps to make sure I understand this stuff. From buying books, to online tutorials, to just trying and experimenting with things that I thought id never like or even put effort into. I can say that web development has slowly won me over and I've been coming to terms with the fact that I'm really not gonna know everything and that's ok. I just find it weird that certain assessors grill you as if they forgot we literally started 5 months ago. From someone with very minimal hands-on attempts at coding, I just feel as though being thrown to the wolves is appropriate. But as cut-throat as it is some of these people are just dicks lol. But I digress.

Anyway…overall I'm feeling as though my experience in this course has really made me feel as if I can do more than what I actually thought I was capable of. I've almost felt invigorated by the fact that I've made it this far and haven't given up on myself. My cohort is great, my classmates are awesome and I've found a sense of community amongst these people. The fact that I get to share my thoughts and my idea and passions with fellow like-minded people has allowed me to grow exponentially.

Also, building websites are really fun! I finally get to see my vision come to life and maybe one day build a small community within that vision. I have many sites that I want to launch and create, allowing me to do that with tools right in front of me with some assembly required. Hopefully, with some elbow grease and a bit of coding magic, ill make my visions realities in all aspects.

I'm done typing now. I pulled a 24hr and have been running off a max of 8 hours of sleep within these last 3 days. Someone pray for me lol.